what's going on?!

she came online a while ago. i was hesitant to message her. took me a while to say hie. not sure of her reaction, or whether she will still continue ignoring me. but then she replied. i apolosised again, still feeling the guilt of what i've done. she asked me to stop apologising, that she wants to put the past behind her. what does that mean?! put what past?! which past?! the one full of happiness and wonderful memories?! or the one where i fucked it all up?!

i said fine and we continued talking casually. it's weird, u know. now she calls me by my name. no more 'bee'. this is something i've got to get used to. so we talked about work. i think i did more of the talking. and she just typed in a few short remarks. then she left. just like that. no goodbyes. no nothing.

has she moved on?! or am i still holding on to something that's already dead?!

maybe it's too soon to tell...